Words of the Wise

“If I could tell the story in words, I wouldn’t need to lug around a camera”
-Lewis Hine

Brain Fart: Heart & Brain

"Your heart is there to love, not to think. Your brain is there to think, not to love" -icewulf

Fingers on the keys once again...

After another slew of asian snacks, counting the minutes, origami, logic puzzles, stumble upon stumbling (thanks Carlo), sudoku and brain farts in between, I find my brain ready to write and compose once again.

Now what the heck am I gonna write about? Pfft, anything and everything I guess!

Insight on Fear

...just presenting an old insight...hope it helps my dear.

"Having no fear is an impossibility. Claiming to have no fears is stupidity. Believing to have no fears is living in a fantasy. Accepting and facing one's own fears is courage, bravery."   -icewulf

...of love and lust

Of Love And Lust
-rey

Dusk conquers the land
As I watch your silhouette
And the splendor it adds
To the divine sunset.

A shadow of temptation
Triggering an insatiable craving.
Captivated, I am zombified
Body and soul starts raving.

I hold your hand
And feel its warmth.
Compliment it with a kiss,
Fueled by the pyres of my heart.

I wrap you in a warm embrace
And caress your every curve
Teasing your vulnerable spots
Alluring every nerve.

I bear you in a lovers’ carry
And lay you down in bed.
Tuck you inbetween the sheets
And leave a kiss on your forehead.

I slip right beside you
And cross your legs with mine.
I place my arms around you
I kiss your neck, we entwine.

Good night my dear, goodnight.
Blessed am I to see your face
Right before I end this day
Blessed am I to end it with you this way.

Good night my dear, good night.
I reach and turn off the lights.
Good night my dear good night.
Don’t hold your moans and sighs.

....yihee!

...angeles crest highway, bofa, fireworks...hmmm.

rekindled
-rey

sanity's lost
feelings flare
forgotten cost
everything bare

warm to the touch
soft to the lips
hugs that mean so much
tingling from a kiss

walls torn down
embers relit
give the queen her crown
on her throne she sits

life comes full circle
love, passion, desire
words of the oracle
hearts on fire

...hah!

i
am
back!

...lost in thoughts again.

Versus
-rey

Listen. Tune in.
Just yield. Give in!

Resist! Stand firm.
Don't blink. Don't squirm.

Rebel, stand up!
Stir chaos and snap!

Focus, Persist!
Strive & insist.

Fuel your hate
Rise & retaliate!

Hold back, restrain.
Think twice. Remain.

............
...................

Sit down & pray,
Let Him show the way.

...from a king, for a queen...

got rice? i'm bored.


I Don't, But I Do
-rey

I don't love you because of your charming ways
But I do love you in spite of all hear-say.

I don't love you because of your creative prowess
But I do love you in spite of all your madness.

I don't love you because of your unmatched wits
But I do love you in spite of your dramatic fits.

I don't love you because of your awesome appeal
But I do love you in spite of your temper, whatever the deal.

I don't love you because of your eye-catching physique
But I do love you in spite the fact that i'm not always who you pick.

No, I don't love you because of,
But I do love you inspite of.

...random prowls on the net: ...portrait?!

Who Should Paint You: Alfred Gockel

All American yet funky, you inspire an artist's imagination And while not everyone will understand your portrait, you will!

What Artist Should Paint Your Portrait?

...collaborations...

...a carnival, an early morning, sitting by an awesome poet while having a few monsters equals this.

Untitled
-rey and rae


Walking through the grass
Wandering how long life lasts.
Watching my loved ones die
Has become a normal day.
Wishing this life and end
Sooner
Rather than
Later
Numbed, scarred
Life plateaus
No more sunrise or sunset
Just the perpetual limbo
Of life that was
And the imminent death that is.


Untitled
-rey & rae

Grab the lens, take the shot
Pictures blurry, nothing new
Wonder growing…every new thought
Every new…
Every…
No…new thoughts. [Loser.]

Find a new angle
…new perspective
I need better lighting.

Nothing’s gonna change
All is lost.

Expose the film
Break the lens
Grab a Monster
Call it a day.

...two poems

Two poems for two wonderful people.

Guardian Angel
-rey

Might I be so blessed to have you here
An angel in my life of sorrow and fear.
Reminder and guide, guardian and friend
Impure though I am, your hands and heart you lend.
Standing by me, a pillar of strength
Stay with me, forever I'll be indebted
And I will praise the Lord, who heard me as I pleaded.

Queen of the Dance

-rey

Aloft the clouds she glides

Sway balance with a point

Heart on fire, soulful raves

Life and music she craves

Each step an elation

Youth on fire with passion.

...one of my life's many angels.

Katherine
-rey

Outskirts of Lipa City, 1330 hours. The 16th of February, 1998.

The silence is deafening and not even a gentle breeze moves a blade of grass. One can feel it in his skin, death is in the air. Finally a breeze blows through…and it reeks of blood. At the turn of a corner sitting on a pool of blood wide-eyed is the one they call the Icewulf. He’s a teenager with a past blanketed with a haze of deceit and hatred. A single tear falls down his cheek as he heaves. With but a glance one would notice that the blood is not his. Laying in his arms like a rag doll is a young lady. Her name is Katherine, but to those who know her relationship to the Icewulf she is called Wolfsbane, named after the beautiful albeit very poisonous flower used to kill wolves. Hearsay dictates that she is the one person able to control him.

On Katherine’s white tank top, right above her left breast lays the source of the red pool, a single gunshot wound. It was a single shot that was aimed at the Icewulf, until she pushed him out of the bullet’s path and received the piece of metal in his stead. His eyes, all glazed stare right into hers as his mind races through memories of just a few minutes ago…

South expressway, 1300 hours. Destination: Lipa City, current speed 160 kilometers per hour.

“Don’t you ever drive slower than 120kph?!”
“Not this discussion again Kathy!”
“Somehow I knew you’d say that. Hah!” Kathy chuckled as he puts on his yeah-right-whatever face on.

“Anyway, I hope you don’t mind but I want to ask you something.”
“You’re my best friend you know you don’t need to ask for permission to ask a question, you know that.”
“Well, then let me ask you…how are you?”
“You’re asking me how I am?
“Yes.”
“You know how I am, you’re with me everyday!”
‘No really, how are you?”
“Oh, I see. Well I’m doing well. Haven’t felt better in a long time.”
“Good to hear, I noticed it in you too. Um, maybe it’s time we stopped all the crazy stuff and just enjoy the calm we have now.”

He takes a while to reply. He looks at her and sees that she was serious, she was indeed pouring out a real sentiment.

“Why? Shouldn’t we take this as a time to prepare ourselves for the next maneuver? Don’t tell me you forgot already all the pain some people have caused you?!” His voice is stern, he’s always full of pride. However, one look into his eyes and one would notice that he is considering her suggestion.

“C’mon, you know as well that I do that there’s nothing to gain by feeding our hatred, depression and by letting our past haunt us. We’ve finally found our way back home, we’ve finally found God again, and we’ve gotten rid of most of our burdens already. It’s time we let go of the past and finally be able to start anew! You teach it, now let’s live it!”

“Kat, you sound just like me when I’m giving a retreat session…it’s scaaaary.”
“Haha…go ahead and laugh but I’m serious. We have gotten past our problems at home, with our exs, with our other friends, with our old acquaintances and influences. But we still let the past haunt us, if we let it go that would be taking off the last anchor that weighs us down. I want to make this step and I want you, my best friend, to come with me coz I know you share the same burdens I do.”

“Best friend?...Yeah. Well…we’ll see.” His face hides nothing about what he feels, clearly something she mentioned changed his mood.

“Why so gloomy all of a sudden? Something I said? Last time I checked we still are the best of friends, right?”
“Yeah sure.” He tries to break a smile. This time its Kat’s turn to look down with her smile fading but he doesn’t notice.

“Alright, we’re exiting now. Hey Kat why don’t we drop by the place where we used to play hide and seek with everyone? It’s just nearby.”
She immediately puts her smile back on and nods, her eyes dictate that she’s lost in thought.

Minutes later they park the car by the side of the road and decide to take a walk. They start pointing out spots where they used to hide while reminiscing. Across the road two drunk and noisy men walk by, one looks familiar. Icewulf waves at one of them but before he utters a word he hears Kat scream and shove him aside. He falls to the ground hard and in shock.


Outskirts of Lipa City, 1331 hours.

He snaps out of his flashbacks as she tries to move her left arm, pain clearly showing in her face she reaches for his shirt. “Take it easy.” he says, breaking the silence, “Hang in there, you’ll be ok.” She tries to break a smile and in a weak and shivering voice a few words escape her lips. “You saved my life so many times before, I’m glad I was able to save yours when it mattered the most. Take care of yourself ok? No more crazy stuff.”

“This is not the time for this kind of talk Kat.” His voice revealing he’s about to break. With a smile on her face she replies, “There will be no other time. Listen, please. Remember all we talked about before we got here? Please, consider it all. You know this is your second chance, don’t waste it. Let go of your hatred, be thankful you are where you are.”

“Please Kat save your strength…”
“Don’t worry I’ll be fine, I love you.”
He stares at her wide-eyed. It’s the first time she ever said that to him. He’s known her for years now, she never lets go of those words unless she means it. Not even some of her past boyfriends heard her utter those words.
“Don’t look at me that way, silly….” Her sentence is cut off by a cough. Some blood comes from her mouth as she coughed.
She stares him right in the eyes. “I always have and I always will. Take care.”
With barely any sound coming from his shaking lips he utters, “I always have and I always will too.”
Hearing those words she smiles her most beautiful smile in her lifetime, then she’s gone.

...pride of the Father, warriors of the Spirit, sisters in Christ

Sisters In Christ

-rey

Spirit awakens, a relationship is born

Underneath the differences, a common dawn

Zooming past the chaos of a troubled world

Each one a flower blooming amongst discord

Touched by my hand I am blessed!

Touching my heart, twice over, I'm blessed!

Endeared to me, endeared to the Spirit

Kindhearted souls of service and discipleship

Abounding in love they share their gifts

Re-echoing the voice of He who declared them fit.

Ensnaring the demons of the world they march on

Noble and holy warriors of the Son!

Death has no grip

All evil has no voice

Resounding faith, their shield and armor

Love is their sword.

Envied by the wicked

Nitpicked by the fallen

Each one challenged by darkness

And yet not one remains beaten.

Smiles of peace are found on their lips

Hell freezes over at their words of prayer

Life regenerates with their healing touch

Every eye turns to God as they let loose their laughter

Young at heart yet mature in Spirit

Maidens handpicked to serve this world we live in

All called and instructed to prepare the way

Readying the path for His glorious day

I have had the privilege to have been in their presence

Sisters in Christ, I treasure them all

Sisters in the Spirit have been since they answered His call.

A new, cleansing fire that swept my conscience

Each one a source of strength and inspiration

Reminding my battered soul that I too am called.

I pause and I pray. Glorified shall you be for such creations, Father almighty!

Keep them forever close to your heart, and please ensure their safety,

And I thank you for sending them my way during my days of frailty. Amen.

Sampaguita Song

Just a lil' sumthin per the request of a Bastard. Lol! hope this helped!

Sampaguita Song
-rey

Flashing lights before your eyes
Jeepneys and taxis flying by
Dare these seas of machina
Swim the ocean of Manila

Spread the angels' breath
With every string, every wreath
Tempt the senses for a few pesos
Crack a smile albeit angry bellows
Watch the lights,
Then maybe not
Cheat life to live
Perhaps drivers forgive.

Sing your song
Raise your hands
Sing between the lanes
Sing from the stands

"For the Santo Niño,
For the Blessed Mother,
For the ailing sister,
For the jeepney driver!

Sampaguita! Sampaguita!
Buy a string, buy a wreath
Buy the beauty and the scent
Of the angels' breath!"

Randomness.

20 Random Facts

Tagged by Con

1. I knew how to read, write, add & subtract 2 digit numbers when I was 3 years old.

2. I work two jobs. One as an auditor, one as a youth minister.

3. An officemate calls me "lolo" and people from the youth ministry call me "tatay". (Both here

in L.A. and back home in Tanauan)

4. Since I was three years old, I have always wanted to learn to fly (with AND without an

airplane)

5. Eighty percent of the stuff in my room back home in Lipa are stuff given to me by friends

which I decided to keep and preserve.

6. My record for solving the Rubik's cube is two minutes flat, my average is five minutes.

7. I've been writing poetry since I was three years old.

8. It doesnt matter which hand I use to hold my spoon or fork when I eat. I can eat as

comfortably with the spoon or fork on either hand.

9. Until I turned six years old, I could write with both hands.

10. I drink three to five tumblers full of coffee between the hours of 6:00am to 8:00am.

11. I collect Care Bear stuffed toys, I have at least 30 already.

12. I am my sister's wardrobe, hair and make-up consultant.

13. I lust for Charlize Theron.

14. I have perfected the mix of Amaretto, Welch's Cran-Apple Juice and Smirnoff Raspberry Vodka. Which me and my friends are yet to name.

15. Vodka, Tequila, Gin, Beer, Rum, Red & White Wine don't scare me. But plain Bailey's turns my stomach inside out.

16. I would eat Isaw and Kwek-kwek anytime, anywhere.

17. I collect stamps, coins, silver crosses, shot glasses & Care Bears.

18. When I go shopping I buy more stuff for friends than for myself.

19. I am "green minded" because of 11 years of LaSallian education. Go figure.

20. I drank tequila with Drew Barrymore.

Now I tag everyone I linked up to.

...*hic*

Day of Sobriety
-rey

A break into reality.
Whoa! The real feeling of gravity.
A better sense of direction,
Goodbye fourth dimension!

Leaps and bounds I take
But no broken glasses in my wake.
A clear path lays in front of me
And my steps! I’ve made more than three!

A day of sobriety
Crystal and crisp as can be.
Renewing and refreshing
Reinvigorating and liberating.

But my mansions, where are my mansions?!
Oh, what happened to my billions?!
My dear, you’re the ugliest I’ve ever seen!
And might I ask, where is your twin?

I think I need a drink.

...just passing through.

Passing Through
-rey

Another morning, another day.
Just passing through, coming by your way.
A little wave just to say hi.
Hoping for a chance to see you smile.

Passing through, killing time,
But savoring this moment like vintage wine.
Passing through I see skies clear and blue,
In your aura I find one more reason to live life anew.

Passing through, stretching out.
Relieving stress without a doubt.
Hoping for a word, a nod, a glance,
Or hear you call my name by chance.

Another morning, another day.
Just passing through, coming by your way.
A little wave just to say hi.
Hoping for a chance to see you smile.

...love...my two cents worth.

**NOTE 12/15/05: Bro, please check this link >>> Joisa's Blog Post on Friendster

what she has to say and what i have to say in the post below affirm each other, (incase you needed a second opinion)**

**NOTE 12/12/05: Hiya peeps! I'm making this post public now with the permission of the great guy who i wrote this email to. Just my two cents worth, hope it comes in handy sometime.(originally composed 12/02/05)**

Ei Bro!

Sup? It’s been quite a while now hasn’t it? Well I’m just glad you’re doing better than last time.

Dude you’ve asked me this time and again, “How would I know if I’m in love?” and always I tell you, “You just know.” Hence, if you’re planning to ask me if you are in love with someone, well more than likely the answer is no. Set yourself free! Hang loose! Don’t you dare even think of analyzing love and the symptoms of it lest you want to drive yourself crazy. Don’t think more than you have to. Love comes, love goes, love remains. You feel it, not think about nor analyze it. Have you been hurt? Have you felt pain? Insult maybe Or maybe even treachery? Now despite those feelings, do you still long for the person? Do you find it possible to forgive and see through the pain, dirt and confusion? If you do then there you go, that’s love. You just “know” it’s there. No analysis needed, no scientific methods of deduction and soving.

You could and will reach your extremes, be it joy or despair, anger or calmness and despite what you feel you could still find in your heart happiness for “the one.” She could tell you to your face “I’m in love with someone else…” and you would just smile though your heart is breaking and tell her you’re happy for her. She could spit in your face and insult you but the moment she trips and falls you would still be there to catch her. Hah! The irony and the beauty of love.

Beauty maybe but skin deep, but not so when it pertains to the beauty of someone in love, for that person’s beauty transcends anything and everything. How come? Because it is the kind of beauty that rests not on the surface, but is rooted deep in the soul. Another reason why you will just “know” when you’re in love. Love is in your heritage, it is in your being. Love is who you are. Remember, you were created in His image and likeness, the likeness of love. It is your nature, it is in you. It is not something you learn, it is what you ARE. Search for love within yourself, ask Him, and I guarante you’ll find love. Have faith.

Remember the story I told you? The story of the old man with a scarred and bleeding heart and the young man with a clean and shining heart? I hope you do. Remember, the heart that has bled, lost a few pieces and gained a few, is a heart that has truly loved.

Well, I gotta go for now bro. Till next we meet. Keep yourself in prayer. I’ll be around whenever you need me. Oh and next time drinks are on me.

God Bless!

-Rey

lumabas mula sa bughaw

...ala lang...zzzzzzz.

Unang Sugat
lyrics by: Rey
music by: (tbd)


Tanda ko pa noon
Ikaw ang una kong pag-ibig
Mga salitang kay tamis
Sariwa sa iyong bibig.

Mga pangakong kailan man
Pagiibigan ay di mabubuwag.
Paglalambing na ubod ng tamis
Magkayakap magdamag.

Ngunit di rin nagtagal
Ako'y iyong pinagtaksilan.
Puso'y ibinasura
Ipinagpalit na sa iba.

Unang sugat sa puso
Hatid ng pagtalikod sa pangako
Unang sugat sa puso
Dala ng pag-ibig na bigo
Unang sugat ng puso
Magpakailanma'y magdurugo.

Tumakas sa karimlan ng mundo
Nagisip pinagnilayan ng husto.
Ganito ba talaga ang buhay
May madidilim na kulay?

Pinatibay ang loob
At nagbalik sa liwanag.
Nabuhay muli at ngumiti
Ngunit di na maibabalik ang dati.

Unang sugat sa puso
Hatid ng pagtalikod sa pangako
Unang sugat sa puso
Dala ng pag-ibig na bigo
Unang sugat ng puso
Magpakailanma'y magdurugo.

Di nagtagal at natutong umibig muli
Huminga ng malalim at nagbakasakali
Muling lumiwanag ang mundo pusoy nabuhay
Nangarap na sa nga ito na ang pinakahihintay

Ngunit sa gitna ng puso'y meron pa rin umaagos
Mula sa isang sugat, dugong hindi maubos

Unang sugat sa puso
Hatid ng pagtalikod sa pangako
Unang sugat sa puso
Dala ng pag-ibig na bigo
Unang sugat ng puso
Magpakailanma'y magdurugo. (2x)

Unang sugat ng puso
Dahil sayo'y nagdurugo.