Thursday, September 30, 2004

Expressway? No. Freeway.


Expressway? No. Freeway.
-=rey=-

I was coasting through the notorious afternoon rush hour traffic at about 50 kilometers an hour. Everyday, I go through the exact same situation and see the same things. But today seemed different.

Slowly the 50 kilometers an hour cruise became 40, then 25, a few minutes later I was at a complete stop. That is the South Luzon Expressway for you Rey. I muttered to myself. Instead of getting all frustrated and bursting my nerves, I rolled down the window and took a look outside. Just as I expected, the skies behind me were crystal clear, and the skies ahead were dark and heavy, laden with smog. The air in Batangas sure is a lot cleaner than the air in Manila.

I was still looking up to the skies when I got distracted by a flock of pigeons that took off from some of the pine trees lining up the expressway. Off they flew to my right hand side, towards the direction of Mount Makiling.

I rolled up my window. Traffic started moving again. After about half an hour another complete stop. Once again I rolled down my window. There were fewer trees now. Buildings are now situated a lot closer to the expressway at this area. I am near Susana Heights, I presumed. Suddenly, a fork of lightning and the loud crack of thunder that followed startled me. Heheh. Another common weekday afternoon sight and sound here at the South Expressway during the rainy season. The Mitsubishi Galant in front of me seems to be getting ready to move, it has been revving up its engine. Soon enough we roll again.

Five minutes later the trees are all gone and buildings are lined up everywhere. As for the traffic, it is still there. As expected, for one more time another complete stop. I thought about rolling down the window again but heck, I am surrounded by buildings now and the cars are a lot closer to each other. I am much more in danger of dying from carbon monoxide poisoning by rolling down my window than from staying in my car with the air conditioner on. Where am I now? Sucat? Maybe.

Out of the blue another loud rumble is heard, but not that of thunder. Then a gigantic thing crosses the skies above me. Oh, I am by the international airport runways now.

After what felt like forever and a day (which actually was only 15 minutes) traffic started moving again. Just a minute or so later there it was, the cause of the miles long traffic jam. A gasoline tanker lay on its side. Thank God this one was empty.

Out of curiosity I tried to read what company owned and operated the fuel tanker. The rear was so badly scratched I could hardly figure out the name. Aha! Arco. Vendors of some of the cheapest fuel in Ca..li..for..nia? What the hell?! What was an Arco tanker doing in the South Luzon Expressway?!

Then it dawned on me. This was NOT the expressway. I was homeward bound from work and I was currently driving down the 134 freeway going west. I was then in Burbank, California. I had to do a reality check a couple of times before I finally snapped out of it. It felt too much like the Philippines. Like the places I frequented most. Sadly everything had an explanation.

The smog up front was because of the city of Los Angeles. One of the top ten most polluted city atmospheres in the world. The pine trees I saw earlier and the birds and the mountain were all situated alongside the westbound 101 freeway which I merged from. Thunderstorms are not uncommon during the beginning weeks of Fall. And the landing plane was meant to land at the nearby Burbank airport.

I felt like I was sinking into the car seat, and I was just about to entertain my disappointment and my frustration because of the traffic. However, I caught myself and found a reason to smile. This traffic, this freeway, however unpleasant, even for a while, gave me a glimpse, took me back and made me feel what it was like to be in a place I called home.

Act Two Scene One

Act Two Scene One
(Demigods debate the fate of Felicia)
-=icewulf=-

Set forth thy gaze.
On her battered soul.
Burn down thy blaze.
And dispose thy coal.

Too late for that.
The game has been set.
Woe to that brat.
Time to collect debt.

What then to gain
From thy little spree?
Freedom from pain?
Thats not like thee.

What then to lose?
Give me time to play.
Shes tied her noose.
Ha! Oh happy day!

Thy ways stay strange.
But thy design, clear.
Watch that deranged.
Stupid. No fear.

Entertaining.
She knows not her fall.
Ill keep watching
As she fights this squall.

Why just keep watch?
Why not end it now?
Open a scotch
And set down your brow.

She brought this up.
She must bring it down.
Shant make it stop.
Should she even drown.

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Pawetry

Is It Just Me?
(The Icewulf thinks out loud)
-=icewulf=-

Is it just me?

Is it just me?
Or can they just not see.
Everything is bright as day.
Easy for me to read as I may.

Is it just me?
Is this really all they can be?
I give them the benefit of the doubt.
Or should I just let it all out?

Is it just me?
But is this their concept of "we"?
Please tell me this is not it.
I'll give you time.
I'll wait and sit.

Is is just me?
Or can they just not set things free.
Leave it be, let it flow.
Are you afraid true colors might show?

Is it just me?
Or is there a conspiracy?
It saddens me things have to be this way.
Please don't wait for me to jump into the fray.

Is it just me?
Come on, tell me.
Or have you forgotten your creed?
Your consciences you do not heed.

Is it just me?

Monday, September 27, 2004

Pawetry

Sunset Whispers
-=icewulf=-


Ocean breeze,
Sunset skies.


Beaming smiles,
Tears in my eyes.










Feel the sand so cold,
view the vast blue lawn.

Touch the warm hand to hold,
Feel the shoulder to lean on.


Fill the breeze with stories.
Wash our pains with the waves.

Celebrate our little glories
With sunset whispers - our silent raves.





Echoes of a Full Moon

"My enemy's enemy is NOT my friend. He's my tool, my pawn."
-icewulf

Saturday, September 25, 2004

From the Den Archives - Spring 2004

Eyesbreaker
-=icewulf=-

In a span of three days the ice is broken. Things turn around. I did not expect to feel this way so soon and honestly, I do not know if I should be glad or not.

From a state of total introspection, wallowing in depression and fears, I now stand high on the peak of Olympus. How? Beats me. Divine (or demonic) intervention most likely.

Due to a string of events my wheel starts to spin and I find myself back on top. Some feel good that I feel this way, for some heheh. I see a few raised brows. Few know aout what happens when I am back on top. People like cynic Kiko, forever critic Concon and subtle but crazy I.N. are part of the handful who know of the silly antics, the freaky thoughts, the wildcard decisions, the power trips, the unpredictability and the suttle vengeance I exact when my hype is up and my moods are good. They are also but the few who have seen my "bitch mode" on. So, do I celebrate? Or do I start to mourn?

Whut-the-hell?! This is not the time for that, I have been in darkness for a while now. And so now I start to party, but pardon me if I happen to crush you as I dance and prance on my way to the stage. It is nothing intentional nor personal, you were just..well..in the way! If you have any problems with that, I am sorry but I have no time for that coz this is my party now and there are no rules, therefore, I do not care about anyone tripping and freaking out on this. Just chillax! Either you kick back with me, or you can hit the road and hit the sack.

What to do now? Back to the roots. The basics of having fun. First find a target. Done. Targets selected. What to do now? Second, observe. Never underestimate observation. It is a good source of ideas, information and entertainment. What next? Third, use data collected from observations and formulate a hypothesis, then (fourth) experiment. This is where it really gets fun. Watch the eyes dude, watch the eyes.

I have only been back to this state for a few days and the laughtrips are great, too bad sometimes I am only laughing quietly in my mind as I am surrounded by my lab rats. I am not content yet though. And for that there is only one solution. I need more experiments to conduct. What happens next? Observe and see.

Friday, September 24, 2004

Pawetry

Salamas DaTerd!
-=icewulf=-

Isang malaking pasasalamat
Sa aking natatanging kaibigan.

Mahalay.
Di maintindihan.
Makulay
Maaasahan.
Matipuno.
Kalbo
.

Salamat Leo.

Thursday, September 23, 2004

Pawetry

Silence
-=icewulf=-

Silence.
Not a whisper. Not a breeze.
Ironically, the sound of Death.
And the music of Peace.

Silence.
What does it bring now?
Fear? Hesitation?
Or did someone disavow?

Silence.
Is this part of the norm?
Or is it merely
The calm before the storm?

Silence.
Foe or ally?
Two edged sword.
The best form of lie.

Silence.
Unpredictable but vicious.
Like tempest winds
Capricious.

Silence.
My favorite weapon.
The unheard enemy.
Vanquishing both reason emotion.

new blog, thx ken2ts!

ken2ts....puta ka!
would like to say thanks for helping me set up this blog, puta ka talaga!

Everyone...
Welcome to a new chapter!
To those who have continuously supported, read, critiqued and despised my Even Angels Fall Xanga, thank you! I welcome you to the yet another chapter... I could only hope that you be as honest and open as you guys have always been in my past online blogs and xangas...
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