She wants me to be happy. I am.
She worries she might make me sad. I wonder.
Before entering into this awesome relationship I am in, I gave myself time to think, reflect and even seek advice. I knew what I was getting myself into.
Now, was I thinking that this would make me happy? Definitely.
Did I expect hardships, stress, frustrations and sadness as well? Of course!
Today she was worrying about me being sad because of the way she was feeling. She was not ready to open up to me today. Of course it sucks for me but what the heck, I love her anyway. It's interesting though how passionate she feels about not making me sad. It's touching really. However though, i hope she understands that I don't expect her to make me happy 100% of the time. I know life is a roller coaster. I did not get into a relationship with her because i expect her to make me happy and keep me happy. I'm in a relationship with her, I love her, and I want to spend forever and a day with her because she completes me. She makes me feel alive. She makes me feel worthy. She accepts me regardless of my past, of my scars. She is not afraid of the monster in me, and whwnever that monster comes out baring its fangs and claws ahe comes at me head on and hugs me instead of running away in fear or instead of slaying me. NO ONE has ever done that for me before. Not my exes, not my friends, not my best friends, not even my family. How I wish she jmusters the courage to hug me at times like this instead of feeling like she has to pull back inside her den.
I love her, she's THE ONE for me and I'm NEVER letting go. I love her regardless of what people say. I love her regardless of what she thinks. I love her with all I am, with all I have and in all ways I know. Like I told her, if there is one thing I'm sure of in my life, it is that I love her and want to spend the rest of my life with her by my side.
She worries she might make me sad. I wonder.
Before entering into this awesome relationship I am in, I gave myself time to think, reflect and even seek advice. I knew what I was getting myself into.
Now, was I thinking that this would make me happy? Definitely.
Did I expect hardships, stress, frustrations and sadness as well? Of course!
Today she was worrying about me being sad because of the way she was feeling. She was not ready to open up to me today. Of course it sucks for me but what the heck, I love her anyway. It's interesting though how passionate she feels about not making me sad. It's touching really. However though, i hope she understands that I don't expect her to make me happy 100% of the time. I know life is a roller coaster. I did not get into a relationship with her because i expect her to make me happy and keep me happy. I'm in a relationship with her, I love her, and I want to spend forever and a day with her because she completes me. She makes me feel alive. She makes me feel worthy. She accepts me regardless of my past, of my scars. She is not afraid of the monster in me, and whwnever that monster comes out baring its fangs and claws ahe comes at me head on and hugs me instead of running away in fear or instead of slaying me. NO ONE has ever done that for me before. Not my exes, not my friends, not my best friends, not even my family. How I wish she jmusters the courage to hug me at times like this instead of feeling like she has to pull back inside her den.
I love her, she's THE ONE for me and I'm NEVER letting go. I love her regardless of what people say. I love her regardless of what she thinks. I love her with all I am, with all I have and in all ways I know. Like I told her, if there is one thing I'm sure of in my life, it is that I love her and want to spend the rest of my life with her by my side.
