...love...my two cents worth.

**NOTE 12/15/05: Bro, please check this link >>> Joisa's Blog Post on Friendster

what she has to say and what i have to say in the post below affirm each other, (incase you needed a second opinion)**

**NOTE 12/12/05: Hiya peeps! I'm making this post public now with the permission of the great guy who i wrote this email to. Just my two cents worth, hope it comes in handy sometime.(originally composed 12/02/05)**

Ei Bro!

Sup? It’s been quite a while now hasn’t it? Well I’m just glad you’re doing better than last time.

Dude you’ve asked me this time and again, “How would I know if I’m in love?” and always I tell you, “You just know.” Hence, if you’re planning to ask me if you are in love with someone, well more than likely the answer is no. Set yourself free! Hang loose! Don’t you dare even think of analyzing love and the symptoms of it lest you want to drive yourself crazy. Don’t think more than you have to. Love comes, love goes, love remains. You feel it, not think about nor analyze it. Have you been hurt? Have you felt pain? Insult maybe Or maybe even treachery? Now despite those feelings, do you still long for the person? Do you find it possible to forgive and see through the pain, dirt and confusion? If you do then there you go, that’s love. You just “know” it’s there. No analysis needed, no scientific methods of deduction and soving.

You could and will reach your extremes, be it joy or despair, anger or calmness and despite what you feel you could still find in your heart happiness for “the one.” She could tell you to your face “I’m in love with someone else…” and you would just smile though your heart is breaking and tell her you’re happy for her. She could spit in your face and insult you but the moment she trips and falls you would still be there to catch her. Hah! The irony and the beauty of love.

Beauty maybe but skin deep, but not so when it pertains to the beauty of someone in love, for that person’s beauty transcends anything and everything. How come? Because it is the kind of beauty that rests not on the surface, but is rooted deep in the soul. Another reason why you will just “know” when you’re in love. Love is in your heritage, it is in your being. Love is who you are. Remember, you were created in His image and likeness, the likeness of love. It is your nature, it is in you. It is not something you learn, it is what you ARE. Search for love within yourself, ask Him, and I guarante you’ll find love. Have faith.

Remember the story I told you? The story of the old man with a scarred and bleeding heart and the young man with a clean and shining heart? I hope you do. Remember, the heart that has bled, lost a few pieces and gained a few, is a heart that has truly loved.

Well, I gotta go for now bro. Till next we meet. Keep yourself in prayer. I’ll be around whenever you need me. Oh and next time drinks are on me.

God Bless!

-Rey

lumabas mula sa bughaw

...ala lang...zzzzzzz.

Unang Sugat
lyrics by: Rey
music by: (tbd)


Tanda ko pa noon
Ikaw ang una kong pag-ibig
Mga salitang kay tamis
Sariwa sa iyong bibig.

Mga pangakong kailan man
Pagiibigan ay di mabubuwag.
Paglalambing na ubod ng tamis
Magkayakap magdamag.

Ngunit di rin nagtagal
Ako'y iyong pinagtaksilan.
Puso'y ibinasura
Ipinagpalit na sa iba.

Unang sugat sa puso
Hatid ng pagtalikod sa pangako
Unang sugat sa puso
Dala ng pag-ibig na bigo
Unang sugat ng puso
Magpakailanma'y magdurugo.

Tumakas sa karimlan ng mundo
Nagisip pinagnilayan ng husto.
Ganito ba talaga ang buhay
May madidilim na kulay?

Pinatibay ang loob
At nagbalik sa liwanag.
Nabuhay muli at ngumiti
Ngunit di na maibabalik ang dati.

Unang sugat sa puso
Hatid ng pagtalikod sa pangako
Unang sugat sa puso
Dala ng pag-ibig na bigo
Unang sugat ng puso
Magpakailanma'y magdurugo.

Di nagtagal at natutong umibig muli
Huminga ng malalim at nagbakasakali
Muling lumiwanag ang mundo pusoy nabuhay
Nangarap na sa nga ito na ang pinakahihintay

Ngunit sa gitna ng puso'y meron pa rin umaagos
Mula sa isang sugat, dugong hindi maubos

Unang sugat sa puso
Hatid ng pagtalikod sa pangako
Unang sugat sa puso
Dala ng pag-ibig na bigo
Unang sugat ng puso
Magpakailanma'y magdurugo. (2x)

Unang sugat ng puso
Dahil sayo'y nagdurugo.

...maybe.

Spoke with a friend early this morning...she cried over the phone.

She always had this secret crush on her bestfriend but she never let him know. For years know she just admired him from afar, hoping somehow someday he would notice her in a different....more romantic way. Alas he never did though he kept her close to his heart. She was his bestfriend, his confidant, his shoulder to cry on. And she has been ever vigilant and responsible as such while secretly harboring this silent crush.

Today though it seemed like she's about ready to give up hoping that he would ever see her as anything more than a best friend, so she called to just let it all out. I felt for her, also I felt blessed enough for not being in the same predicament, though the situation is something not entirely unknown to me.

Till now i hear her cringing voice...and as if I were an empath, I could almost feel what she feels...here's a lil' something to let it all out.

Hope you feel better soon!

 

Maybe
-rey

Maybe it's time I stopped dreaming
Of the time you would ask me to stay,
Look me in the eye, ask me why
I just keep falling for you this way.

Maybe it's just not meant to be
Waking up with you right by my side,
Holding your hand each night and day
Feeling the warmth of your love inside

Maybe I should stop loving you
Though it grows deeper each passing day.
I should just stop hurting myself
Stop hoping your heart would look my way.

Maybe it's time that I moved on
Though I know I'll never be the same.
But know that even though I've gone
In my heart you will always remain.

I ramble on...then write a poem.

Haha! Season 5 of Smallville has begun! Did anyone watch it? I did! Anyway I was fascinated by the way they presented Clark's discovery of the Fortress of Solitude. That is one part of the Smallville-Superman story that I have been eager to find out how they would put on film, and honestly, I'm not disappointed. One thing about the episode thoug...I believe there should have been 3 Kryptonians searching for Clark who were trapped in that trans-dimensional thingie. Well, maybe the third one is that guy who showed up in the end of the episode (Spike from Buffy.) Oh yeah, i liked the Lana & Clark scene at the hospital towards the end. How Clark indirectly asked Lana it she meant saying she loves her in the barn the day before and how Lana asked Clark back. And of course Clark answered with a kiss instead of words.

Pardon my rambling if it gets incoherent and if I got typos, the screen is currently minimized as my boss ir right behind me. Heheheh.

Of Love And Lust
-rey

Dusk conquers the land
As I watch your silhouette
And the splendor it adds
To the divine sunset.

A shadow of temptation
Triggering an insatiable craving.
Captivated, I am zombified
Body and soul starts raving.

I hold your hand
And feel its warmth.
Compliment it with a kiss,
Fueled by the pyres of my heart.

I wrap you in a warm embrace
And caress your every curve
Teasing your vulnerable spots
Alluring every nerve.

I bear you in a lovers’ carry
And lay you down in bed.
Tuck you inbetween the sheets
And leave a kiss on your forehead.

I slip right beside you
And cross your legs with mine.
I place my arms around you
I kiss your neck, we entwine.

Good night my dear, goodnight.
Blessed am I to see your face
Right before I end this day
Blessed am I to end it with you this way.

Good night my dear, good night.
I reach and turn off the lights.
Good night my dear good night.
Don’t hold your moans and sighs.